
Photo by N. Oberg
I was at the subway station the other day sitting with my eyes closed, waiting for the train to take me home. I then heard a person speaking to me, telling me I look like a believer. A little surprised at this interruption of my moment of repose, I opened my eyes and faced the person. I could tell she was a little inebriated, just enough to to render her unable to resist the urge to speak to strangers.
We then talked and she let unfold her conceptions of life. She was a doubter and wondered how anyone could possibly be a believer and that believers are brainwashed.
Brainwashed? Now I think there’s nothing wrong with having clean brains…
Well, despite my new acquaintance’s stark bias, our short conversation did launch me into some introspection. It made me ponder what the foundation of my solid faith is. Ingredients of it are in my experiences, how I have seen countless answers to my and others’ prayers, even unable to recount all I’ve witnessed; how I have heard of a great many healings that have taken place in response to prayers and also seen quite many healings first hand and have even been instantly healed myself – a miraculous thing; how once I was overcome by great fear which had me throw myself on my knees and shout for help from the Father – and He instantly swept the fear away leaving nothing but calm tranquility in its trace; and most of all the many times I have prayed so deeply and in faith for the Father’s Divine Love to come into my heart and felt the Love come into my soul so strongly and with such intense delight as to wipe out all doubt in my mind as to the reality of the Father’s Love for me.
I notice now how most of my spiritual experiences are directly related to prayers uttered in faith, which has enabled a live relationship based on the actual spiritual intercommunication deep within me and the Heavenly Father, worded or more often wordless and silent. And the basis of this faith is not so much in reasoning, although I must say of course pondering and meditation has played an important role as well in my path.
Now I wonder how I could possibly relay the experience of this prayerful faith and receiving the Love of the Father and the consecutive Alive relationship with the Heavenly Father to someone whose foundation of thinking is extremely worldly, ignorant of afterlife, stuck in the secular “rational” mindset and not knowing of spiritual things? Well, I console myself in that those off course will of course be eventually guided back. Yet still I am in the now seeking for ways to relay this magnificent awe-inspiring experience of a relationship to people even if the brick wall of ignorance was there, because even brick walls cannot forever hold back the light that is seeking to enter through. The Love of the Father will always find a way.

Photo by uday.